Friday, January 28, 2005

Life as of now

Life right now is pretty hectic (whats new?). I feel like its more hectic now than it has ever been. There just seems to be so much work for me to do and I do not have the time to do it all and in some cases I'm desperately trying to catch up with some of my work. I used to be pretty carefree, going out with friends and constantly expanding my social circle. But recently, I have absolutely no time for that and my social life hgas come to an absolute standstill. Johnny called me many times to invite me for an outing with the 'gang' but for a while now i've been deciling every single invitation. That's weird, coz I'd usually jump at an invitation like that and accept it immediately. And there are still so manyt things I want to do. There are some things I'm doing now that I don't find very meaningful anymore but I have to hang on for a while longer because I haven't finish all I need to do there. I'll still continue to teach at NYJC because teaching over there has become a passion with me and I really enjoy doing it and helping the students. I'll still participate actively in mosque activities. I'll still be involved in youth organisations and I'll still busy myself with picking up new skills. I guess that leaves one or two things which are left. Some people already know what they are and know when I'm gonna cease doing those things.

Went to Malaysia last weekend and met my sweetheart and fell even more deeply in love with her. Sometimes, it just takes one person to completely change your perspective on life. Or at least some perspectives if not all.

I passed my basic theory test! Woohoo! I'm so happy. Now I can apply for a provisional driving license and start learning how to drive. It would be completely fantastic! I cannot wait till driving lessons start.

Ashara is coming and I'm getting pretty anxious about maintaining my voice to pray marsiya. God willing, hopefully my voice will not give way during ashara and will remain ok for the zikr opf Imam Husain.

Take care guys....and have fun.

-HoZeFa-

Monday, January 10, 2005

Unwired

Woohoo! Finally, the wireless system in my house is working and my computer is finally connected. No more hogging mum's laptop. Haha. Thanks mum, for all the online time.

Was quite busy these past few days. I dunno what exactly I've been doing but I've been doing lots of stuff. Yet, I'm still not doing the things I should be doing like arranging and tidying all my stuff in the room, exercising regularly, watching what I eat and engrossing myself in studying. Sigh....where does all the time go?

I seriously gotta watch less TV.

Went back to NYJC last wednesday to meet Mr Chan about Bio and ended up doing lots of other stuff. Checked out the ongoing orientation. I must say that the 27th student council is doing an amazing job with this year's orientation. They've really got things going. Mr Tan brought me to see the new teacher's room and saw some LTC photos. Met Mr Singh and had an awkward silent moment before he tols me "Life must go on" and we talked a bit about Mr John Lim. Mr Lim...still so dearly missed. It seems Mr Singh took over his table so that there wouldn't be an 'empty space'. Sometimes you just gotta give it to Mr Singh. He really knows what to do in almost every situation. I would say, he's as wise as Gandalf. Also, I finally met Mrs Ho! Talked about lots of stuff with her.

Anyway, the next day the NYJC orientation participants came over to my office at the CDHG and it was pretty fun trying to entertain them. Made the day a lot more enjoyable. JS also came over with a bunch of 26ers.

We'll see what the week brings ahead. I'll also get some photos of the memorial service tomorrow so I'll put that up on my blog.

See ya guys!

-HoZe-

Sunday, January 02, 2005

Aftermath

As I read more and more reports on the damage inflicted by the tsunami, the full extent of the whole thing finally hits me.

Sometimes, its just too painful to think about these things.

To think about children who were on holiday with their parents, a happy family and then suddenly thrust into the sadness which is orphanhood. Then there are children who were just living their carefree lives which were destryoed the moment the tsunami killed either them or their families. Then there are the children who lived a very hard life, trying to work very hard so that they do not go hungry at the next mealtime, who are now in complete despair after the tsunami.

It's just so painful to think about them. But whats the point of just thinking about them? Whats the point of pitying them? How is that going to help them?

I'm gonna try to donate as much as I can to the funds which help the victims of the disaster. And I urge you to do the same if you haven't done so.

One of my aims in life is to set up an organisation which helps children in poverty and aims to give them the same oppurtunities as other children. If you have a similar goal, do let me know, perhaps we can do it together.

Let us be one with humanity, by saving humanity's joy and future.

-HoZe-

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