The last one week or so has been like some kind of extreme roller coster. Its like there have been so many thoughts running through my mind, the processor is kind of overloaded. On top of that, the great big huge humongous gigantic pile of work that sits on my desk still needs to be done...all throughout the thinking.

So many many thoughts. Like what the future will be like for me. Will I be able to find a suitable job after uni? Will I be able to achieve the salary of my dreams? Start a company which would earn millions eventually? Will I be able to pursue my dreams in Singapore? Or will I have to leave my country, my home to find my rice bowl?

If I have children, what will they grow up to be like? Will they learn to honour their traditions and follow the religion of their forefathers and serve society and their country honourably or will they be swept away with the increasing amount of negative influence now infiltrating our Asian culture? Will they learn to respect all types of people in the world, regardless of race, language or religion and pursue world peace? What type of parent would I be? Will I still be able to talk to my kids when they are in their teens?

Will my social life remain the same? Will I still be able to keep all the friends I have right now? Will In always be able to rely on them for support and give support to them when they need to rely on me? Will I remain in contact with them till I grow old?

With the way the world is going now, will I ever need to experience anything other than peace, which I'm enjoying in Singapore? Will I ever need to rise to the occasion and serve my country if there ever would be a war here? There's no doubt that I'd go forward and protect my country, Singapore, with everything I have. It's my home, I have to protect what is mine. But will it ever come to that? After that, then what?

Goodness knows why I was thinking so much. Perhaps it has to do with recent events, causing us to think about the future in a forever changing world.

And to my sweetheart. I know you're kinda busy and perhaps a bit stressed with your exams but always know I'm here for you. Love you.

Ok Guys, enough thoughts for today. Take care and goodnight. And remember, world peace is achievable if we all put aside our differences, try to understand each other and work towards a better future together.

-HoZeFa-

The TV series One Tree Hill is really an interesting one. I don't think there is another TV series that can truly match the accuracy of how it portrays teenage life. The emotion, situation and action is so accurate you sometimes feel like you're looking at your own life through the series, of course, less dramatic. It's on every Wednesday on Starworld (Starhub Ch 18)at 8pm and 10 pm. You guys shoudld really check it out. I promise, it shall not dissapoint. (Though because the story has advanced so much you might find a little trouble following it)

I went to the URA City Gallery a few days ago. It was amazing. Part of the exhibits was a scale model of the whole Sinagpore city area. They actually had models of every building in the city area and placed it on a map. Orchard road, City Hall area, raffles place....everything.



The Gallery is located at the URA building somewhere in Shenton Way I think. Guys, check it out!

Ok, that's all. Have fun.

-Hozefa-

photos of the week....or month....or whatever.

Going on a snorkelling trip with some friends to Pulau Sibu in malaysia.

Briefing Participants at the NYJC Leadership Training Camp 2005

I have to apologise, to everyone. I have to apologise for leaving my blog un-updated for a long time despite many of you phoning, sms-ing, emailing and tagging me to update it. I have just been qite tied up in the ordered chaos that is life.

Many things have happened since I last updated. One of it was stepping down as chairman of the VSITC BOA. After eight years, I am finally taking a step back.

I remember feeling something like this when I had stepped down as president of the club four years ago. But despite having felt it before, the emotions were just as overwhelming. I don't know if I will ever be able to get over this feeling but I'm confident that time will lessen the effects.

I had arrived early at VS for the handover ceremony. It then struck me how much I had to prepare to see this day. The initial talk of stepping down, the conducting of elections, meeting up with my successor a few times to hand down everything and ensure nothing is left out. I didn't have time to think about emotions prior to the handing over. All I know is that sometimes I felt angry, because people just didn't understand why I needed to step down, anxious because I didn't know whether I was making the right decisions, desperate because time was running out and I had to ensure that I gave my successor everything I knew.

The ceremony went relatively well. I had actually prepared a long speech to give, but honestly, I didn't feel like giving it when I went up to make the speech so I said a few words and stepped back.

After the ceremony, I had stepped down. Felt slightly disoriented, but knew life still had much in store for me.

Will update again.....soon. :)

Take Care Guys.

-Hozefa-