Friday, June 29, 2007

Went for a special sabaq (religious class) yesterday. Aqa Moula (TUS) had graciously given raza (permision) mumineen to learn from the kitab (book) of Syedna Hatim Mohyuddin (RA), the 3rd Dai-ul-Mutlaq who lived in Yemen and is buried in the hill-top town of Hutaib. The title of the book is Tambi-hul-Gaafelin which is loosely translates into "Waking up those who are asleep". Indeed, how deep in sleep we are!

In his preamble, Aamil Saheb (who was teaching the class) stated that the book was written as an answer to a person who lamented to Syedna Hatim about the state of society. How people lived at odds with each other instead of working together with one another. Syedna Hatim effectively explains why true believers of the faith should adopt good social habits. Not just because it is good and we need to be good.....it goes even deeper than that. And Syedna Hatim also explains (using very creative and understandable similies in my opinion) what are these good social habits and how we can improve the world by just improving ourselves. How we can reduce conflict in the world by following the simple guidelines laid out in the Holy Quran. Syedna Hatim also clearly explains and elaborates on the points found in the Quran.

It was only one lesson and there are many more to come but I will try my best to follow what I have learnt. And on my first day today I have found out that it is easier said than done. But I must at least try.

The Kitab was written as a response to a man's lament on the state of society. Indeed now the world is in conflict. The people of the world are sleeping. And Aqa Moula, in all his wisdom, knew exactly what mumineen needed to wake up. Tambi-hul-Gaafelin.

While each word from the Kitab places a man deep in thought on his actions, it also goes to show one thing. That Islam, in its essensce, is peace. It advocates peace, it requires its followers to live peacefully and co-exist peacefully with other in this world. Only then it would be possible to co-exist peacefully in the next. Unfortunately, many elements who claim to be Islamic don't seem to understand that. It is such a pity.

I am ever thankful to the Lord that I am a follower of Aqa Moula (TUS) who is the true advocate for what Islam is all about.

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Right now things are getting quite hectic as the usp freshman orientation camp comes creeping slowly. Today I had to make a difficult decision. It was difficult as my team mates would now have to do extra work and many others who helped us may not be too happy with the decision. But I believe the decision was the right one. I was reminded of something Bill Clinton wrote in his autobiography that a certain decision he was making at that moment in time was opposed by 80% of the electorate. He reasoned that if he didn't make the right decision and when the bad effects of it becomes apparent, he could not tell the people that he didn't make the right decision because 80% of them opposed him making the decision that he thought was right. I am thankful, however, that my core com members are so supportive and I'm confident we'll able to pull through hard times to organise a highly successful camp.

Monday, June 11, 2007

Random thoughts of the day.....

It's so typical of me. One day I would be on such a high having accomplished something and the next day I will be all down again depressed about what I cannot achieve. Why am I such a perfectionist when I don't have the ability to live up to my own expectations? Why do I have so high expectations which I don't have the will to live up to? Argh! Perhaps high expectations are a blessing but at the moment, it's more a bane.

I don't know if I can ever fall in love again. The last time that happened, it didn't work out. Now i'm forever afraid that things will not work out. I'm afraid to put myself out there. I'm afraid to get close to anyone because in the end, I'm afraid I'll get hurt. But at the moment, love is not a priority. I'm not particularly looking for someone. I have too many other things to think about.

My social life is an almost zero. I don't know how it came to be this way. I used to be full of life and always had people to go out and watch a movie with. Now I don't really think so. I haven't watched any of the latest movies because I can't find anyone to go with. What would be closer to the truth is that I don't know who to call to go with. Sigh. Have to do something about this.

Gonna take a break today from everything. Things start again tomorrow.

HoZe

Sunday, June 10, 2007

NCDCC ATC June 2007 has just ended. I'm really tired right now and my eyes are burning like anything. But since I can't sleep at the moment I think I'll just type my thoughts down and see what I can do after that.

The last 7 days were amazing. Tiring, but amazing. Monday till Thursday was the ncdcc SNCO course in which I was in charge of the leadership programme and Friday till today was the ATC which was my first one ever since I became the ncdcc ATC coordinator. Why was it amazing? Because the kids, the cadets, were amazing. It is really great working with them. You think you're gonna teach them something but in the end, you end up learning so much more. I think joining ncdcc was a great decision. I'll write more on this when I'm more awake.....haha.

I think sometimes I spend too much time on people who really don't care about me and too little time on people who care about me and I really matter to. I think I really have to re-look this part of my life because I could be pushing away the people who matter the most in my life.

Anyway.....need sleep. Bye. :)

Hozefa

Sunday, June 03, 2007

Hey guys....

I've started a new blog aimed at student leaders..... do visit http://learningleaders.blogspot.com

This website is maintained by my education company, Duck Learning.

Do visit it and recommend it to your younger friends who might be student leaders in schools.

Thanks!

HoZe